Uh-oh it's magic!
Understanding magic.
I guess I could say that I have been unknowingly practicing magic since the time before I can remember.
Magic is a trickery of sort.
Don't get me wrong, I am not focusing on using the word trickery as to mean deceitful, I am using it more in the sense that it is difficult to understand and master. Each person sees and understands and uses magic differently. Yes, there are common ground of reality and acceptance. But if you pay attention to details, you will find that each magician mastered their tricks differently. At least, that is what I found.
When I was a baby, my mother told me, I'd cried so loud that the whole neighborhood would hear me. Everyone will be aware of my upsets when I am not happy. That is still true today. Of course, I do not wail like a banshee any more, but I was told that my emotions tend to influence people around me to feel the same way.
When I was a little older, 6-7 years old, I have the ability to predict unfortunate outcome of things. My mother told me that I have a cursed mouth, the bad things I predicted came to be real. If you don't believe in those mimi-kaka-voodoo stuffs, let me translate that to you in non-magical term. As a child, I had extremely keen observation skills. I was able to conceive the potential threats and predict the outcome of bad choices. It's only the process of probability. However, as a child, I do not know the consequences of what should be said out loud and what shouldn't be, or when it is acceptable to express certain thoughts and when not to.
I learned that soon after and I learned to layer my communications. When I say that magic is a trickery of sort, it was a small sample of one of my magical skills. I use words and terms that may mean one thing to some people and a different thing to others. There are layers to the language and all the messages are correct and true - to me. You may say that I send different messages to different people using the same exact sentence.
It's a child survival instinct. If no one wants to play with you because they feared that the bad thing you said is going to come true, you will quickly learn to distract them into different direction or learn to be quite.
I also learned to become the ambience noise. I can yell out from the top of my lungs and all people hear is white noises, and not the message. It's very frustrating when you scream as loud as you can, and your words were still ignored.
It makes sense. You know secrets and you want to share, but the world is not ready to know. So, you said it out but you were able to say it in such a tone that it does not grasp anyone's attention. That way, you can say that you said it and it's not your fault that people did not heed your words.
It gets quite frustrated, though, because of the limitation of the vocabulary, especially the English language. This 2007 year, one of my major challenges is to understand and master my problems in the communication area. The other, is to control my emotions so that it does not become co-dependent with the emotions of those around me. The other issue that just recently came to my attention is that I do not recognize the customary boundaries between people, other living things, time, space, this world and the Otherworld. It is so easy for me to slip from one realm into another that it was second nature and I forgot to stop and think that other people have hard time with it or following where I am going. I need to learn to define those boundaries and pay more attention to what I can or cannot expose outside of the physical reality.
What about you? What type of magic is your specialty? What are its strengths and weaknesses?
I guess I could say that I have been unknowingly practicing magic since the time before I can remember.
Magic is a trickery of sort.
Don't get me wrong, I am not focusing on using the word trickery as to mean deceitful, I am using it more in the sense that it is difficult to understand and master. Each person sees and understands and uses magic differently. Yes, there are common ground of reality and acceptance. But if you pay attention to details, you will find that each magician mastered their tricks differently. At least, that is what I found.
When I was a baby, my mother told me, I'd cried so loud that the whole neighborhood would hear me. Everyone will be aware of my upsets when I am not happy. That is still true today. Of course, I do not wail like a banshee any more, but I was told that my emotions tend to influence people around me to feel the same way.
When I was a little older, 6-7 years old, I have the ability to predict unfortunate outcome of things. My mother told me that I have a cursed mouth, the bad things I predicted came to be real. If you don't believe in those mimi-kaka-voodoo stuffs, let me translate that to you in non-magical term. As a child, I had extremely keen observation skills. I was able to conceive the potential threats and predict the outcome of bad choices. It's only the process of probability. However, as a child, I do not know the consequences of what should be said out loud and what shouldn't be, or when it is acceptable to express certain thoughts and when not to.
I learned that soon after and I learned to layer my communications. When I say that magic is a trickery of sort, it was a small sample of one of my magical skills. I use words and terms that may mean one thing to some people and a different thing to others. There are layers to the language and all the messages are correct and true - to me. You may say that I send different messages to different people using the same exact sentence.
It's a child survival instinct. If no one wants to play with you because they feared that the bad thing you said is going to come true, you will quickly learn to distract them into different direction or learn to be quite.
I also learned to become the ambience noise. I can yell out from the top of my lungs and all people hear is white noises, and not the message. It's very frustrating when you scream as loud as you can, and your words were still ignored.
It makes sense. You know secrets and you want to share, but the world is not ready to know. So, you said it out but you were able to say it in such a tone that it does not grasp anyone's attention. That way, you can say that you said it and it's not your fault that people did not heed your words.
It gets quite frustrated, though, because of the limitation of the vocabulary, especially the English language. This 2007 year, one of my major challenges is to understand and master my problems in the communication area. The other, is to control my emotions so that it does not become co-dependent with the emotions of those around me. The other issue that just recently came to my attention is that I do not recognize the customary boundaries between people, other living things, time, space, this world and the Otherworld. It is so easy for me to slip from one realm into another that it was second nature and I forgot to stop and think that other people have hard time with it or following where I am going. I need to learn to define those boundaries and pay more attention to what I can or cannot expose outside of the physical reality.
What about you? What type of magic is your specialty? What are its strengths and weaknesses?
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