Got a boneman on my shoulder doing the devil's work.
Last night, Warlock and I went for a walk under the stars. It's amazing how 20 minutes outside of downtown Los Angeles can provide us with a star-filled sky.
Warlock and I, we think we saw the Milky Way. Also, I noticed that the star on Orion's right shoulder is orange and his left knee is blue. There are so many stars out last night, it's unfortunate that my knowledge of the night sky is only limited to the moon and Orion.
I could never tell if the bright star I see is Venus, Mercury, or Mars? Maybe it's the North Star or Sirius?
*******
And now, for our regular scheduled rambling of insanity...
You know? Life sucks. Yes, it's got a couple of happy days along the way to push you on, but as a whole, life sucks. You can call me pessimistic, but it's hard not to be one when you constantly see then end of things.
Have you ever play with a magic 8-ball? You shook it and when you didn't like the answer, you change the rules: make it two out of three, three out of five, or that time didn't count. I think that is what I'm doing. One is in charge of one's own destiny. Or does one not?
I see the end and it's not that amusing, so, I tried to cheer myself up and be optimistic – things can change blah blah – and I tricked myself into believing it. So, I get hurt when reality came nipping me in the butt.
Someone told me that it's all the power of the mind. If you think it, it will go as you think. All you have to do is really believe in yourself.
I had my good days, and I had days where no matter what I do, things will just not go my way. I don't think I have a weak mind, I just think I'm unfocused. There is nothing for me to believe in except for some flippant reality that I don't fully trust.
For the past two months, I have been fighting with identity issue. On one hand, I stood my ground and live the way I'm comfortable with: passive, go with the flow, talking to ghosts. It's kind of like living in a dream world. Yet, on the other hand, I feel like I have been forcing everyone to live with my "condition". It sucks that my ways of living do not conform to mass public's standard. It made me feel odd, but it is not right for me to force everyone to conform to the abnormal.
It sucks that we are so conditioned to think - and believe - in such a certain way that any idea that is not conformed to the settings that we are accustomed – or programmed - to is just unbelievable hard to think with.
There has to be a middle ground somewhere. I don't think I'm that far off from reality. I have been spoiling myself rotten as of late by letting myself float within the alternate universe of subconscious. Though, I must say I deserved it fully with all the lemons life threw at me lately. However, I guess it's time I actually grow up and start integrating between what is there and what is not, and walk in the common territory.
It is funny that what is there is the intangible and what is not there is the actual tangible entities. What real is not and what is not, is real. If that makes any sense at all.
I guess it's time to step out of the boundaries.
***********
And now...on to our useless questions of the day...
1. Ever punch someone in the face?
None that I care to remember.
2. How old are you?
Old enough to know something but not old enough to know everything.
3. Are you single or taken?
I am...difficult.
4. Eat with your hands or utensils?
Always utensils if I have the choice.
5. Do you dream at night?
Yes, and the morning, and during the day as well.
6. Ever seen a corpse?
I was inclined to say no but I'm almost sure I've been to the funeral before.
7. Have you ever wished someone dead?
Yes. Not with bad intension or anything, just that some angels belong in heaven.
8. Do You Like Bush?
I don't know him enough to pass judgments. He is just a sock puppet making a living as far as I can see.
HERE COMES THE FUN.........
9. Whats your philosophy on life? and death?
Life: Ancora Imparo
Death: death before dishonor, at least alphabetically.
10. if you could do anything with me, and have no one know about it, what would it be?
I think that's a thing we should discuss...privately.
11. do you trust the police?
Depends on the police, each of them has his/her own personality.
12. Do you like country music?
They are entertaining in general.
13. what is your fondest memory of me?
Your aura is shiny.
14. If you could change anything about yourself
would you?
Yes. I think I'm too dependent - needy, to be exact. I'd like to be a little more autonomous.
15. would you date me?
Be careful of what you're asking.
16. What do you wear to sleep?
If it's just me, the blanket is enough. If I'm not alone, pajamas pants and oversize-T.
17. What is the worst thing you have ever done?
Which level of hell can you handle?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
I always like a good mystery.
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
Your day, your choice.
20. What is your favorite thing about me?
You, being you.
21. do you think I'm attractive?
Everyone is attractive in their own charming way.
22. what's your favorite color?
It's ever changing.
23. if you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
King Tut. I want to know if it is the bash on the head or the wound in his knee that killed him.
24. tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
"Know some call is air am."
**********
And now...a token of jest
Warlock and I, we think we saw the Milky Way. Also, I noticed that the star on Orion's right shoulder is orange and his left knee is blue. There are so many stars out last night, it's unfortunate that my knowledge of the night sky is only limited to the moon and Orion.
I could never tell if the bright star I see is Venus, Mercury, or Mars? Maybe it's the North Star or Sirius?
*******
And now, for our regular scheduled rambling of insanity...
You know? Life sucks. Yes, it's got a couple of happy days along the way to push you on, but as a whole, life sucks. You can call me pessimistic, but it's hard not to be one when you constantly see then end of things.
Have you ever play with a magic 8-ball? You shook it and when you didn't like the answer, you change the rules: make it two out of three, three out of five, or that time didn't count. I think that is what I'm doing. One is in charge of one's own destiny. Or does one not?
I see the end and it's not that amusing, so, I tried to cheer myself up and be optimistic – things can change blah blah – and I tricked myself into believing it. So, I get hurt when reality came nipping me in the butt.
Someone told me that it's all the power of the mind. If you think it, it will go as you think. All you have to do is really believe in yourself.
I had my good days, and I had days where no matter what I do, things will just not go my way. I don't think I have a weak mind, I just think I'm unfocused. There is nothing for me to believe in except for some flippant reality that I don't fully trust.
For the past two months, I have been fighting with identity issue. On one hand, I stood my ground and live the way I'm comfortable with: passive, go with the flow, talking to ghosts. It's kind of like living in a dream world. Yet, on the other hand, I feel like I have been forcing everyone to live with my "condition". It sucks that my ways of living do not conform to mass public's standard. It made me feel odd, but it is not right for me to force everyone to conform to the abnormal.
It sucks that we are so conditioned to think - and believe - in such a certain way that any idea that is not conformed to the settings that we are accustomed – or programmed - to is just unbelievable hard to think with.
There has to be a middle ground somewhere. I don't think I'm that far off from reality. I have been spoiling myself rotten as of late by letting myself float within the alternate universe of subconscious. Though, I must say I deserved it fully with all the lemons life threw at me lately. However, I guess it's time I actually grow up and start integrating between what is there and what is not, and walk in the common territory.
It is funny that what is there is the intangible and what is not there is the actual tangible entities. What real is not and what is not, is real. If that makes any sense at all.
I guess it's time to step out of the boundaries.
***********
And now...on to our useless questions of the day...
1. Ever punch someone in the face?
None that I care to remember.
2. How old are you?
Old enough to know something but not old enough to know everything.
3. Are you single or taken?
I am...difficult.
4. Eat with your hands or utensils?
Always utensils if I have the choice.
5. Do you dream at night?
Yes, and the morning, and during the day as well.
6. Ever seen a corpse?
I was inclined to say no but I'm almost sure I've been to the funeral before.
7. Have you ever wished someone dead?
Yes. Not with bad intension or anything, just that some angels belong in heaven.
8. Do You Like Bush?
I don't know him enough to pass judgments. He is just a sock puppet making a living as far as I can see.
HERE COMES THE FUN.........
9. Whats your philosophy on life? and death?
Life: Ancora Imparo
Death: death before dishonor, at least alphabetically.
10. if you could do anything with me, and have no one know about it, what would it be?
I think that's a thing we should discuss...privately.
11. do you trust the police?
Depends on the police, each of them has his/her own personality.
12. Do you like country music?
They are entertaining in general.
13. what is your fondest memory of me?
Your aura is shiny.
14. If you could change anything about yourself
would you?
Yes. I think I'm too dependent - needy, to be exact. I'd like to be a little more autonomous.
15. would you date me?
Be careful of what you're asking.
16. What do you wear to sleep?
If it's just me, the blanket is enough. If I'm not alone, pajamas pants and oversize-T.
17. What is the worst thing you have ever done?
Which level of hell can you handle?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
I always like a good mystery.
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
Your day, your choice.
20. What is your favorite thing about me?
You, being you.
21. do you think I'm attractive?
Everyone is attractive in their own charming way.
22. what's your favorite color?
It's ever changing.
23. if you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
King Tut. I want to know if it is the bash on the head or the wound in his knee that killed him.
24. tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
"Know some call is air am."
**********
And now...a token of jest
| The Harlequin You scored 39% Cardinal, 46% Monk, 47% Lady, and 40% Knight! |
| You are a mystery, a jack-of-all-trades. You have the king's ear, but also listen to murmurings of the common folk. You believe in the value of force and also literature. Truly you are the puzzlement of the age. |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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| Link: The Who Would You Be in 1400 AD Test written by KnightlyKnave on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test |
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