I believe in the seven sins. Wield it right and everybody wins.

WARNING: I have something to say, but it appears that I don't know how to say it. This is an unfinished entry. Unless, of course, you are sitting in my head.

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I am feeling another surge of characteristic changed. Today, I'm taking off my philosophical thinking-cap and put my pink-frilly dreaming-cap on.

For the past few months, I have been meandering through life with philosophical questions. The world was quite difficult to comprehend. What's the meaning of life? Why am I here? Who is talking in my head? Do I have sixth sense or over-active imagination? Why do we go through so much suffering? Does everyone suffer through life? And why?

I think what I really learned was not the meaning of life, per se. I don't think there is a definite answer to those questions. Instead, what I walked away with is how to be patience and tolerance. I learned how to respect other people's opinion and stand-points, without having to sacrifice my own. Or express my own believes, and respect others' at the same time. To some of you, you may think this is easy, but to me, this is a task I do not fall into naturally. I can lead well and I can follow well. That is not the problem. The problem is it has to be all or nothing. I can't do both at the same time efficiently. I don't know. Maybe that was just exactly the thing I am here to learn. Different strokes for different folks, I guess.

Anyway, I think my brain has just enough of philosophical thinking to last me a couple of years. I'm leveling off at a good plateau. I grew up to the point where I am content, at least for the moment.

In the next few months, I am hoping to saunter through life with my pink-frilly hat on and dance to the living songs. Life doesn't have to be hard and I'm going to have life show me how it's done. I'm going to make sweet love to the great things life has to offer.

Let the debauchery begins!