Heaven cannot save me. My only way out is through hell.

Last night, I was led to the Underworld by two serpents.

I realized my forbidden fruit is not the apple. It is the pomegranate. Think well before you mock me. I may decide to humor myself and it will shock you out of your existence.

I see things people don't see. I know things too terrifying to mention. I am no longer afraid of the shadow. I can drag out your dark essence and slam it back in your face.

It is hilarious to see people getting exactly what they want.

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The force is with me. Welcome to the "Dark Side".

I want the clock to strike 5, so I can take a hike.

5 Random Things of the day.

5. If I ever get a pet Dragon, his name would be Roth.
4. I think "Good Day" is the best boy's name. Ever.
3. Mercury Retrograde is my brain's bestfriend.
2. Our love represents us at any given point in time. If we are whole, the love is whole. If we are broken, the love is broken. A tortured man's love can be nothing but torture. – Lunacy

1. HAPPY THANKSGIVING, all my pretties.

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And now…30 (minus 1) questions

1. ARE YOU OVER 18?
On the outside, yes. I'm still a child within.

2. WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR MOBILE?
Marble sculpture of Puck. Shakespeare made me do it.

3. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
Tossing and turning. Savage Garden, on repeat, was not the best CD to sleep to.

4. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING WHEN YOU WOKE UP?
Hello Love, I'm back!
(Split-personalities syndrome. It is quite seldom that I'd wake up as me. Usually, I'm someone else.)

5. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
An alarm clock and water.

6. ANY DREAMS LAST NIGHT? WHAT ABOUT?
It was more like a light nightmare, though, the scenario was one of my favorites: undercover spy/assassin type. It made me realized, when I woke up, that I'd much preferred to be a retard amidst people who love me then to be a genius among the enemy.

7. GRILLED OR FRIED?
I'd usually preferred grilled, but seasoning has to be good.

8. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
It would save us much time and energy if you just ask me 'what makes me NOT unique'?

9. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Not the dark, but the shadows in the dark.

10. FAVORITE HANGOUT?
My home is my sanctuary. Though, 'home is where the heart is'. Therefore, unfortunately, my 'house' is not the stationary dwelling as most people assumed it to be and thus, I cannot give you the exact location unless you come with me.

11. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?
Amusement, temptation and adoration.

12. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN 1 MILLION DOLLARS?
Give me a million dollar and you'll find out.

13. FAVORITE SONGS WHEN YOU'RE SLEEPING?
Antonio Vivaldi's Le Quattro Stagioni, The Four Seasons.

14. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
My own shadow.

16. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
LOL. First, what happened to question number 15? And for the answer, the devil goes by many names. (and you can call me anything you like, as long as you pay the price.)

17. WHAT IS YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME?
You know? Even I, myself, don't know the answer to that question.

18. MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?
I truly do not remember. I believe I was possessed at the time.

20. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD HAVE ONLY ONE KIND OF FOOD FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
HAHAHA!! Oh god. One kind of food for the rest of my life? Kill me. Kill me now.

21. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
Have you seen the VW Rabbits commercial? The one with the Birds and the Bees song? That, or the Walk the Line by Levi's. I'm also quite fond of the Apple vs. PC series.

23. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
Me!

24. YOUR EYE COLOR?
Brown.

25. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS/PIERCINGS?
Yes on both counts.

26. WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
An astronaut.

27. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 7 AM?
Hit the snooze.

28. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET?
Blue.

29. WHO DO U WANT TO MEET?
Obviously, someone who, at least, has enough decency to actually spell out the word "you" on a survey form. Life does not pass you by that fast, you, type-A behavioral person. Stop and smell the roses, smell the coffee or smell whatever brings you pleasure. Geez!

30. HOW'S LIFE TODAY?
I think I'm cranky. And I don't even want to bother with the political correctness or the etiquettes acceptable in a social situation at this time. It's that time of the month. I'm cranky. And I got stupid cramp. Rarrr!!!

Devil, my child, is 'lived' spelled backward.

I made a deal with the devil. He said it was a two for one special and I can even keep my soul.

He gave me an apple. "Eat this," he said, "I want your Ignorance, child. And in return, you can have today's special two-for-one."

Patience of a Devil and the Wrath of God.

Love is kind of crazy with a spooky boy like you

I was in a very good mood this morning. I was going to update the blog and let you guys know what a beautiful day today is, but I got distracted by on-line shopping. All of a sudden, I have the urge to get a Welsh Dragon necklace. I've search everywhere and cannot find one that was "it". Though, this came very close. I love the design and the symbolism of it all.

However, I really don't like this "reserve not met" thing on eBay, may be it's because I don't really understand how it works. Why can't we just have a starting bid and take it from there? How much exactly is the minimum amount for you to let the item go, put it as starting bid, it's that simple. No need to be sneaky. I put in $80. It still says "reserve not met". Pshaw! I can go higher but I got no time for this game! I'd much prefer silver over gold, anyway. (still drooling over the design, though)

So, I console my heartache by getting myself one of this. Ha!

No sale for you! Poopy "reserve not met" eBayer!!

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Then, I got one of those spam e-mail thingy that is very clever and disguised itself as a friend mail but contain bad ugly Central Processing Unit eating wormy virus thing. So, I was in a very annoying mood. But I feel much better now, I fed the e-mail and the virus to Mister Scaley. Ha! Take that!! You poopy spammy e-mail!

For those of you who are not familiar with Mister Scaley, here is his picture.


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Then, I heard Spooky on the radio. And I was so happy, because the Spooky song always makes me happy, and it makes me jiggle in my seat. And it makes me feel like I got Blaise walking around in the attic, being spooky like he usually does.

And..I'm jiggling.

And while I'm jiggling. I thought I might as well drop in to say Hi. I'm happy today.

And so I did. Are you jiggling with me?

Looking for answer in wrong places and it's laughing right in your face

I'm not a philosopher. Thank Goodness for that. It takes a very strong mind to handle the mystery of the universe and the meaning of life. The Pandora Box, the Apple of Knowledge or whatever any other names you want to call it.

I am no genius. Thank Goodness for that, too. It took me a while, to figure things through, but that gave me time to learn about patience, balance, and control. Sometimes, I don't succeed. Other times, well, there are other times. What can I say, I am curiosity driven.

I am no scientist. The world should bend down and kiss mother earth for that. Power, in the hand of an impish child, no matter how good the intention is, would turn sour. Power, not used, is No Power. Power, used, is the Abuse of Power.

It's not about change, you see? Anyone can make things change. That's the easy part. One can toss a piece of rock from the top of the hill and claimed that one has changed the location of the rock. This is true. But can or cannot one stop the rolling motion of the rock mid-hill at will? Not by chance. Not by luck. But at one's own will. Now, that, my friend, is control.

Read deep into the lines, dear friends. It almost took my life, crushed my soul, stripped off every bit of my sanity to find the answer. I am handing it to you freely and willingly. Some may say that is foolish of me.

Foolish, that, I am. I am no philosopher. I am no genius. I am no scientist.

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Today's Tarot: The Judgment

The Judgment card suggests that consequences or rewards of past acts may make themselves known or be resurrected at this time. Depending on your coping skills, shared history or vision, these results could put you in a position to bestow forgiveness or support, answer a call to lead with compassion, give birth to new hope or impart wisdom born of experience. Conversely, you could be on the other end of need and will have to rely on others for guidance, simplification, counsel or relief. Your strength can turn either circumstance into a fresh start.

Bad Moon Rising

King of Wands, when reversed: The dark essence of fire behaving as air, such as lightning: An exciting and reckless leader who inspires others to irresponsible acts. An artist whose depraved love of chaos causes him to take hold of destructive ideas and make them appealing to the masses. One who is charismatic and intimidating, using demonstrations of his own skill to dupe others into accepting responsibilities beyond their ability. A dashing and magnetic personality, appearing and disappearing with great suddenness, and leaving upheaval in his wake.

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I told you not to wake up the crazy in the attic, didn't I?
I did.
I told you so.

I'm only the anti-hero. Threading in between rights and wrongs like a weirdo.

You Are 50% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

It's very hard maintaining this balance, at least for me, I must admit. However, I am at incredible peace when I reach this point of equilibrium.

It is hell, though, when it is out of kilter. While one side bears more weight, the other side retaliates and tries to gain back its ground. The worst part, their battle ground is INSIDE my head and it'd torn me up emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Yeah, really.

No wonder I'm cuckoo most of the time. One of these days, I will open up A Guided Tour to Whitney's Brain. My head is a very adventurous and exciting place. And shiny. Oh, so shiny. Well, at least on shiny days, like today.

*cartwheels in the meadow*