Only if I know...

Sometimes, I don't know how to please the world.
Or rather, I don't know what the world wants from me.

If I'm mellow, as in, 'It doesn't matter. We can do whatever you want.'
Then, people think I give up easily. Or I probably don't care.

If I'm expressing myself,
Then, I'm a drama queen or I have attitude problem.

I don't get it. I'm tired of trying to get *it*.
I'm feeling like I'm collapsing, closing in.

I don't want to disappear,
I'm afraid that people will forget me.
But I don't know how to have my presence
Without being an annoyance, either.

I thought it was okay,
Being me.
Maybe I was wrong
All along.