Another "From Zero to Bitch" episode.

You know? I believe people are kind in nature. At heart, humans are nice, compassionate, loving, peaceful beings.

I think I am one. Or, at least, I try struggle to be.

But sometimes, it's so hard; misunderstanding, over-compensation, consideration, stupid bogus martyrdom of one sort or another, my own masochistic streaks, et cetera and whatever; and the little bottle of captive emotions explode. The nice Fairy Godmother turns into the Wicked Witch of the West and eat Baby Jesus for Valentine.

You have no clue how many anger management classes I'd underwent.

The point is I don't want to be this - mean spirit Bitchy Queen of Urban Banshee - but effing smite on a bicycle, I let the world gets to me.

And at night, I tossed and I turned and feeling guilty about how I treated the world. I'm afraid that I will turn into Wrath, one day, sooner or later.

Sometimes I wonder if I can end it before that happen.

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Note to self:
1. Schuldig versus Schuldbewußt
2. Schadenfreude versus Weltschmerz
3. Loki, the "trickster"